I don't know what has set me into a tailspin now. Okay, I do. My friend Heather, whom I love dearly, has just been told that she can start the RN program in January. And here I sit and wait! I wait for people that don't know me to decide my fate. I can't help but feel down. I left my job to go back to school full-time and I put my family's welfare on the line with this risk. Then I didn't get into UW-Parkside for this Fall so here is sit.
I have also been considering canceling my SU demonstratorship as I am the one supporting it. I only have three people that come to my card classes. I know it takes time, but the economy is so bad right now how can I keep it up? Last weekend I went to a craft fair with about 300 cards and sold maybe ten of them. That's money sitting there doing nothing. I have just been considering chucking it all and giving up. Just sell it all (the Cuttlebug, Big Shot, Spellbinders) and be done with this hobby that is addicting and costs a lot of money. I am torn as to what I should do.
On the up side I have lost 43 pounds since the second week in august of 2010. I feel better physically and I am determined to make all the extra weight go away and STAY AWAY! Not the greatest picture of me, but you can see how the pants that once fit me tightly are loose and my shirt feels like a maternity shirt. I have a lot to think about and the kids are up early so I have to go. Have a great day! - Heidi